So a secure network is used for trading, no wonder why I'm only going downhill

It happened again,
I know you like to pretend,
should we dismiss and move on,
try to wash it down and fly off.
At times like this,
I miss home.

You left me again,
you only cause pain,
should I turn away and shrug it off,
or do you still want me to hold on.
For the last time,
I'll carry on.

You told me again,
you tow shared a bed,
should you try and hide it,
acts can't be defied and,
in times like this,
I don't know.

(What's wrong?)
It happened again...
(Can't you carry on?)
It happened again...
Again and again...
(Just stay strong)
Again and again...
(Don't give in)
Again and again...

Buying books off of Amazon is a good hobby if you have time to read them but lately I've been doing that just so I won't have enough money to go out with you

Do not ask,
for you are just a bird,
words won't help,
you just need to fly.

Do not be scared,
for you are just a mouse,
emotions won't help,
you just need to run,

Do not be ashamed,
for you are just a hare,
thinking won't help,
you just need to hop.

You do not need to hide,
you are nothing more than a snake,
slither in their beds,
leave your skin on the pillows,
while still speaking softly,
you spit venomous lies.
Slowly killing me.

Thankfulness is the only thing I have to offer

So,
another wasted day,
but if you ask me,
it was the best one so far.
Can't wait to come home,
just to see you.

I want to make your day better,
because you always make mine.
For that,
I thank you.

Giggle in my memory

When I called you,
you just giggled,
I couldn't see the smile,
but I could somehow feel it.
Tried to face time you,
but our time was up.
No way I'll ever forget,
the moment when I saw you,
I was too scared to say it.
I love you.

All my thoughts have been replaced with lemon-lime ice-cream ( although sweet they are a bit sour and unpleasant, yet I still enjoy them ) - part IV / II

You showed me your wounds,
but you never allowed me to heal them,
you asked for my advice,
but you never listened.

Now you kindly try to stop talking to me,
you politely try to turn down the offer,
the same one you came up with.

Is it because you're scared?
Don't you know I am too?

I've tried running away,
but I always end up coming back to you,
cause you kindly try to let me go,
creating the illusion that you actually care.
Just tell me to get lost,
I'll gladly do so,
but don't blame other's when you think of an excuse to use.

You say that you care,
don't get mad when I won't believe it.
Look at what you've done,
so you can understand the things I'm about to do.

I'm in a city where I'm all alone,
now that you're gone,
there's no place that I can call my home,
there's not a single place where I won't be on my own.

All that I can do is waste my time thinking of you,
that's what happens when I don't have anything smarter to do.
Eat the ice-cream that you loved,
while making the taste become my thoughts.

Another sleepless day because you woke me up in order to have fun while he's gone (Just like in that movie that I cannot remember right now)

Hop, hop, hop,
like a child,
speak, speak, speak,
oh so wild.

Knock on my door,
with no rhythm,
yet just laugh,
get it out of your system,
try to not make it look bad,
while you're laying in his bed.

You said you don't want to get hurt but you don't care when you're hurting someone else, you say it's all his fault and that you didn't know but let's face it, you just wanted to fulfill your lust, for someone who's better, much better. (Or so you believe, I know a thing or two that you don't)

Even the mirrors lie (You do look different in person, although it could be cause I don't have my glasses)/I'm being honest trust me.

To lose everything is impossible,
but losing you was the closest thing to it,
as my habits slowly started to change,
so did you.

In the winter you said goodbye,
making a blizzard.
You wished me good luck,
I just stood frozen.
So in the summer I tried running away from the continent,
went oh so far away,
hoping to never see you again.
Although you're not here,
you're still with me,
I'm just wondering if you ever miss me.

I hope that one day we will start acting like grown ups,
no more hiding, lets break our walnut shells.
Let's just live our lives,
the way we wanted.
Let's just live our lives,
that's all I'm asking for.