30 April, 2015

Girl named Aibhlinn

I've drowned in my own fears and remorse and if I could change something now it would be so much easier let down. Don't stop now because we have something clearer than the day I found you. Aibhlinn just says she loves the train tracks but am I tying myself down to them for loving that, and Aibhlinn says hold back the feelings just enough but it's so hard to staying idle I just want to know what are we doing... What are we doing? Are we just playing a game of hide'n'seek where you and I are both hiding and there is no seeker? We are playing a game which will never end, we are hiding just to never be found.
Aibhlinn your name speaks for itself, I simply cannot get you out of my head and heart. You are poisoning my brain Aibhly, I hate you yet I cannot stop loving you. The despite done by you to me is beyond forgiveness yet I find a way to do so. I would give my eye to know what's going through your head, just like Odin gave his for wisdom. I know my reason isn't as wise as his but that's why he is a god and I'm just a stupid worthless boy who is seeking something that isn't his. Greed is what I hate yet it flows through me! Lies are what I cannot stand yet I tell them, I tell myself that I'm OK without you. Aibhly, you are nothing more than a memory now filled with full of sh*t head lies! You are always talking about others but I swear the next time you'll point the finger I'll bend it back and break it off.
You are always playing god but the truth is you are only a poseur! You are a wanna be rockstar, ohh Aibhly I remember the day I met you, I can only say that it was the worst day ever! I wish the train tracks weren't there, I wished that I was never on that train! Now, all I can do is wait to be used... Use me Holly, come on use me"