Did I just get ultied by Faceless Void in real life?

I was 13 when I turned 20,
and after that I never changed.
7 years later I'm still the same age,
hoping that I'll start to grow old.

The only difference,
my posture got worse,
my sight got murky,
but my age still remained the same.

Didn't get any wiser,
i wanted to catch up,
but I only got caught up,
in the grips of your love,
making me think about life,
thinking about the seven twenty years I've lived.

Burn Hollywood Burn was OK at most, right?

Emotions that are slowly cooking like rice,
three hours are more than enough to think about life,
sweet or salty, I am sorry.

Enter our home,
talk as if we are strangers,
throw the curtains,
hide under the trees in the garden,
give the sun for shade.

This always happens,
and as long as this house stands,
I know it'll never end.

Seeing where you're coming from,
I try to change (the pictures on the walls),
I try to fix the furniture (the one you restored),
but that'll never matter when the foundation is shaky.

The house is moving,
along with my thoughts,
can we just agree to burn it all?

If we start again,
should we build something new,
should we try and forget what I put you through?

Or should I burn,
along with this house,
should I just stand still,
and be judged for what I've done.

I was ready,
I think I still am,
I just don't want you around,
in the way you used to be.
I'm ready to burn this all,
I'm ready to burn with it.

With a sight,
with little hope,
I know you'll be able to forget me.

Never remember me,
stop thinking of this,
let these words open the doors,
as I burn within.

Maybe it'll hurt,
or it could bring me a smile,
I just wish I could stay out of your life.

Fly away forever,
forget who I am,
what I stand for.
You built this house,
it's time for me to burn it down.

Throw away the pictures I have painted,
with my words they were created.
You put them up in our living room,
can't believe what I made.

Destroy everything I've ever touched,
erase me from history,
try to become happy,
that's all you'll ever need,
try to become happy,
since you weren't when you were with me.

The art of getting by, is not even art

One week left to live,
four months of which I'll never speak.

People come and enter,
but your make up will always stay on my shirts.
The truth won't matter as long as you smile,
history will repeat,
once more,
we will meet.

Now with space between us,
I had it all.
Now I act with such demeanor,
I had it all.

Soaking wet,
from the tears of the clouds,
yearning our goodbye.
Loved be those poor geese and ducks,
fighting the cold as we hide under our sheets.

No matter the space between us,
I still have you.

With hopes of seeing a rainbow,
fighting over unicorns,
nothing ever happens,
patience,
sleep half of the day,
it's called patience.
Looking so peaceful,
hearing my whisper,
yelling out of fear,
you got up.

Thought you never listened,
thought you never listened,
I thought.
Did you hear,
you're really all I need.

Now with space between us,
I had it all.
No matter the space between us,
I still have you.

One night I'll never forget,
one handed torture devices that make us laugh.
One handed laughing methods leave us bruised through the days,
yet love will spark,
it'll always spark.

As the geese come out of hiding,
we leave our comfort,
entering waters we thought we'd never swim,
drying our thoughts just so we can go back home.

Spent the broken days outspoken,
money sorted, farewell my old friend.
Enter a new chapter,
same spotlight, you became more.

Now with space between us,
I realize,
I love you more than I should.

A two week old cup of homemade lemonade right before I brush my teeth with vinegar

Losing all my trust,
yet I still believe you,
admitting my defeat.

You have lied,
many times before,
and you still told me things,
no body knows.

Showed your true colours,
but never showed your face.
Flirt with the thought of death,
somehow you were stopped,
but this time,
nothing stands in the way,
except for a bottle of rum,
a golden pen and a writing you'll never understand.

Teen Titans isn't the onlything we have in common

Too stupid now,
to be scared with no way out.
Just frowned upon,
saved my face and yet I'm done.

Don't wanna die, wanna die now!
Wouldn't die for me but I'd die for you.
Don't wanna die, wanna die now!
Wouldn't die for me but I'd die for you.

No not this time,
I won't dig my own grave now.
Please stop me love,
to be in all of this mess.
So you can't just see,
for this odd bad broken dream,
just like fantasy.

Are we enemies,
with no energy,
sadly we've been oh so far away,
oh so far away.
Help me make me stay!

Don't wanna die, wanna die now.
Wouldn't die for me but I'd die for you.
Don't wanna die, wanna die now.
Wouldn't die for me but I'd die for you.

Blown out lungs

And so my life it continues to run still,
even after you left me.
All of this time I just wanted to see,
another colour that will paint the sea.

Like a wind,
it's blowing away.
Like the wind,
it goes right by me,
to the ocean where it's hard to see,
where the hell does the land meet.

I wanna move to the place that you know,
try to see everything.
I wanna move to the place that you know,
try seeing everything.

Here I am now,
blowing my lungs out,
on the sea to set the sail.
Do you know what it's like,
to be stuck in the same place.
Do you know what it's like,
to be stuck all on your own.

I wanna lay on top of the deck,
let the sun burn all my skin.
I wanna lay on top of the deck,
let the sun burn off my skin.
I wanna lay on top of the deck,
let the sun burn all my skin.
I wanna lay on top of the deck,
let the sun burn off my skin.

Like a wind,
it's blowing away.
Like the wind,
it goes right by me,
to the ocean where it's hard to see,
just where the hell does the land meet.

I want to stare at the sun,
want to be the only one,
in such times,
your mouth is a gun.
Everything that you can see,
all leads up back to me,
stand motionless like a tree,
all of this,
will fall down inevitably.

I wanna lay on top of the deck,
let the sun burn all my skin.
I wanna lay on top of the deck,
let the sun burn off my skin.
I wanna lay on top of the deck,
let the sun burn all my skin.
I wanna lay on top of the deck,
let the sun burn off my skin.

Charging up my powerbank just so I can sleep with all the elecetricity turned off ( I honestly don't know how to unplug my fax machine so I have to turn everything off in case you decide to fax me something at around 3 am or maybe 4, I just want to sleep )

And so I sit alone,
another day where I'm far away from home,
another day where I'm far away from you.

I spend hours on nothing,
my mind is always up to something,
yet I spend hours on nothing.

The tears from my eyes,
just brighten up my vision,
I felt no pain from the collision.

You noticed that I was crying,
you heard me say I'd rather be dying.
So you started to hate,
hate the things that I purposely laid in your mind.

So much hatred,
yet I feel your love,
so much love,
yet I get wasted.

I don't want to think,
not even for a moment.
I don't want to speak,
things that will make me be dishonest.