06 March, 2025

Am I the only one in this institution that thinks running Windows XP is valid?

A king once said,
only jesters rush head first,
well consider me the circus,
because that's all I do

The priest once told me,
love is the biggest blessing,
but he forgot about the heartache,
that can't be covered by a dressing.

And the fool was the wisest,
he kept his mouth shut,
didn't speak a single word,
just because he thought he knew the truth.

When games are played,
no one mentions that we both lose,
even if everyone is talking,
the alcohol keeps me deaf.

The baker once whispered,
you'll be damned if you do,
but he forgot to mention,
you'll regret it if you don't.

And the doctor once mumbled,
time heals all,
I guess it was a lame excuse,
for him not to do his job.

Or is everything they said true,
and I'm the one that has no clue,
am I lost and alone,
endlessly swimming in the blue.

Now the king, priest and fool,
the baker, doctor and town folk,
fall asleep early at night,
while I'm stuck to the bottle like glue.

06 February, 2025

I still wouldn't drive a car even if I had a license

 Days and nights merge,
fogging up my memory, 
craving for my youth,
craving for my childhood.

Every day is the same,
I'm covered in mundane,
the fire has burned out,
the spark is completely gone.

Drowning in my misery,
I'm surfing in the waves of my tears,
I'm homeless and broken,
since the day I ran from my sanity.

Turned my back on my goals,
backstabbed my own heart,
left my aspirations bleeding out,
lost, I'm hopeless.